and goodbye,

Guess what?! 9 hours and 45 min left til my flight. AS;DFKJ I'm scared. My mom always leaves the house like 4 hours before we actually get on the plane, cause she's always paranoid that we're gonna be late or whatever. So every year we get there 45 hours early. I sit on the seats reading magazines and listening to my iPod while my mom and brother go buy alchohal. No kidding though. She packed exactly 100 pills so I don't get sick on the plan/during the trip. Never go on vacations with me. I'm always a walking disaster.

Yesterday opened my eyes quite a bit. It felt great. Like I feel like I've finally opened my eyes (not cause I'm asian, ha your funny) and have realized so much! All in one day. Who woulda guessed? Figure that nothings perfect if things don't turn out that way, cause things eventually fit together. Leaving for 2 weeks is gonna make figure out quite a lot. Who knows what I'm coming back to? Or who I'm coming back to? But I just need this break. As much as I wanna stay to figure everything out even more than they've been figured, I just need to leave. Gonna miss sooooo many but most def not gonna miss this summer. Aha woooooow.

1. Realized you're the best there is. Nothing can be better than everything you've given me. Thank you soooo much.
2. I'm glad I've helped you through this situation. It was really quite frustrating for me cause I went through pretty much the exact same thing and I know how it feels. Just give it time, cause things will turn out right. "Life Goes On" <- Life motto right?!
3. Not fully satisfied w/ whats going on between us, but you've kept my head up this entire time and I'm gonna give you the biggest hug when I'm back cause that's what you deserve! :)
4. I'm glad we've made peace. Thanks.
5. You're a strong girl, and I put all my trust into you.
6. Sorry that we drifted this summer. But we'll be back to bestfriends in no time, pinky swear.
7. You know you made me tear up yesterday?
8. And last but no least, you. Out of everyone, I'll miss the most. Been through shitloads this year but we've stuck. Hopefully you know who you are and don't ask me about this. But I saw a side of you that I would've never known. I wanna make things better for you, really and I told you what I prayed for. And that was the complete truth. You drive me insane.

RIP PAULIE aka Janelle's bird.

Jeez it smells so good downstairs, I wanna eatttttt! But I'm full cause of the 6 Reese's Pieces I had this morning -_- AHHHH HASN'T FUCKING HIT ME THAT I'M LEAVING! So frustrating, so this is probably my last blog for 2 weeks which is kinda weird cause I've blogged for like every day since I made this shit. And when I get back, bam. Summers over! Well I'm just gonna go pack and eat then I guess nothin much to say. Goodbye America :) Stay good. Don't wanna worry bout you too much.
and goodbye pt. 2 --

Okay, it's bye for real this time. Well I'm leaving in 2 hours. But daaaaamn this hurts and I think I'm only lying to myself when I say I'm okay. You're still dumb, but I'm dumb too. I just have to learn to accept and to forget. Thassall.
Alright bye, happy summer.